Hate is Such a Strong Word

I hate today, I hate how my brain works and what I need and want and can't have and how it effects me.

I want to be stupidly happy again but I don't think it's in the cards for me.

I feel like I'm shutting down and having to block out everything I used to embrace.  I suppose I am kind of changing who I am to be doing what I am.  That's probably not right and probably something I should look at as a serious problem. But instead I'm living life out of foolishness and trying to ignore everything.  I should fix that.

But I won't.

"I can't get out of what I'm into with you"

Thank you Grizzly Bear.

Ehf