I am SUPER in need of some good reading material. Luckily TheBloggess is starting book #2 but I'd really like to read something before 2014 rolls around...jus' sayin'.
Weird fact about me, the happier I am, the less inclined I am to write...which totally sucks because then my blogs are ridiculously skewed from my real life. According to this, I'm always stressed out and going through crazy emotions and pissed off at the world, etc. But I assure you that's not really the case. I can admit (right now anyways) I have some pretty kick ass stuff in my life. It's great when it's good. Some people don't have that, and I wish I could hang onto that feeling more often. Content for what I have, and who I have... But it often slips away as I fall into my hole every so often, but at least I can still find it sometimes. When I do find it, I have weeks and months where I am annoyingly appreciative with what I have. "I'm so happy to have you." messages, "I think you're fantastic." emails and I get super stupid cuddly. He deals with it though.
Point is, I'm happy right now, it's great, and should be inspiring but for some reason, all my writing energy goes into keeping me happy I guess.
Headed up north this weekend, hopefully I'll have some stories and pictures to share. I'll just set it up here, last year during this same trip, The Man's fam and I came up with "Science Infection" and "Penis Butter"...yummmm. Lets not forget the "Anal Jamboree" either.
I will actually explain this quick. When/if you go camping, or end up at an RV park, look at the names of the RVs...then put "Anal" in front and there you have it - the Anal Jamboree, Anal Cougar, Anal Bounder.
I'd love some help here. My first anniversary is coming up in October. We're just dating sure, but I want this to be special for both of us. I need some ideas!
My first is one I found online, I think I'm going to make a little box or Jar with 50 reasons I love you.
I'm hoping this won't be too much but I plan to fill it with pretty paper with written things, pictures, mementos from the last year together and such like that.
Other than that, I'd like to a cool event kind of thing. I know we're going to dinner in the city but I'm not sure where to go from there. Any input would be awesome. I'm generally pretty creative buy I'm having a hard time on this one.
I absolutely love having a blog to look back to especially
this year when I was going through some of the most epic events of my life
right around now last year.I like to go
check my private blog and pull up today’s date in 2011, see what was going on,
what I was bitching about, what I was struggling through.It’s like reading a brand new blog though,
even thought it was my life, I’m so different now, still just as bitchy
probably but my speech is different and the issues I was pushing through are so
unfamiliar now.NOT when I reach
February though, let me tell you, I’ve basically looped around back to February
right now.More on that…probably in
This time last year I had moved out of the house I own with
my ex fiancé (who I just saw for an unpleasant minute this weekend) and in with
my sister as a temporary fix. At this point in September I was beginning to pay
my mortgage AND rent because our renters at the house (and used to be friends) screwed
me over.Crazy to think I have nothing
to do with them now when we were supposed to be in each other’s weddings. But
that’s life, people come and go.
This time last year I had no idea what to do about this guy
I met, I was crazy about him but he had no idea what he wanted.Understandably considering I was just engaged
two months ago.
This time last year my best friend who I’ve known since 6th
grade broke up with me.Mostly out of
the blue she wasn’t herself and we ended our friendship for reasons I didn’t
(and still to this day don’t understand). I’m happy to say she is back in my
life now, though things are different and I doubt our ability to fully restore
the friendship we had.
This time last year I felt empowered, happy to be free from
the stresses brought on by my past relationship.I was happy with myself, something I wish
could have lasted longer than it did.
This time last year I started to fall harder for my guy. “I might
be getting attached, I can't really tell. Some days I feel like everything is
perfect just the way it is. "Friends" who hang out an awful lot
and...well you know, hang out... I've been great with it. I don't have to worry
about him, I can still focus on me, still go out with other people, but still
care about him, do nice things for him, enjoy our alone time, all without
having any big worries or expectations. I didn't think it would work like that
for me. But some days it doesn't.”
But he still had no idea what he wanted,
unfortunately that hasn’t really changed a whole lot.
Well, I might start looking for a new job...already. It's been four months but there is just some stuff going on here I don't understand. Like in a "How do you run a business like this?" kind of way. I haven't learned crap since I started and that is just not acceptable in the banking world. Decisions, decisions.
Good things though, getting my hairs did tonight. Thank the lord, I'm almost blonde again. EEK.
This is from last month but I never got around to posting it.My man accessory’s birthday was last month and this is what I made him.
Maple Bacon Long john
Hazelnut Bacon Cupcakes (don't compare, mine look like crap)
If you're into bacon at all...go here for recipes. Yum
On top of that, I got him the dorkiest gifts I could find.Dungeons and Dragons
figurines, and a way overpriced (collector’s item style) disc golf disc, plus I
took him to a Beirut concert, which was just…awesome.
An email from my roommate/bestie that I got this morning that cheered me up some. Unfortunately it'll apparently take more than great friends to fix this thing I'm in. But I'm so very glad I have him.
Hey, look at me! Being all businessy, sending an email.
And you know what I just did?
I just made you a paint picture based off of that starting
sentence. Note that I did not finish until the paint picture was done. I'm not brushed
up on how to use Paint (if you catch my meaning). I don't know if I'm cut out
for this kind of work, as the painting itself is sheer crop, it
certainly wouldn't place in the free-form selection.
K, no more bad paint puns.
I hope you have a good day!
I also hope you have a coworker as cool as Businessy.
And the paint picture you ask? Titled "The Accounts Are all Loched Up."